Tonight I get to see Little Jakey (awwww...) and watch movies with Kim. Tomorrow I will go have an art lesson with Aunt Mom (James's Aunt Martha) and my cousin Karen...
I think my Happy Pills are having odd effects on me. I have been depressed off and on through this whole week. Not as in the "excuse me I need to weep" kind of depression that I would have expected this week, but the "no-energy-just-wanna-sleep-and-over-eat" kind of depression. What is also not normal, is the level of anxiety i've had yesterday and today. I've been stressing over things (while awake AND asleep) that I haven't stressed about since I was first put on the happy pills. I blew something yesterday TOTALLY out of proportion, stressed over it, and then stressed over other things while I was at it.
Now I'm thinking about how I've lived this week... not drinking much water, eating lots of chocolate, having migranes, etc... Maybe it's not the happy pills after all. But either way, I'm very down at the moment. Not hopeless, because I KNOW this will pass. Just sad, because there is so much to do and I have so little energy. But it will pass.
Next week will be different. My goals are to begin and end every day with prayer, to exercise at least some every day, give some time every day to making a collage... and a few more that I'll decide later.
Hey, lets spend some time daydreaming about what the next week could bring!
Next week... I'd like to...
- Spend my evenings surrounded by bright sunshine, getting my yard ready for summer
- Finish organizing my kitchen, so that it is MINE! MINE! ALL MINE!!! Bwahahahaha
- Finish the collage I'm making on the box to hold my catalogs, and admire it's cuteness, and take pictures for you all to love it too!
- Happily dance in my jammies to my dance exercise video
- REALLY focus on spiritual things, (I miss my spiritual depth), and on giving more of myself to "my kids" I want to try to find some extra time to spend with them in smaller groups. Maybe some girls hair-doing evenings, or art days, or something. We'll see what we can come up with!
What are YOU dreaming of for next week?
5 comments:
I can relate to how you are feeling with the depression thing. Mine turned out to be mostly hormonal. I hate that! Anyway, what am I dreaming of next week?
1. More sleep
2.Less running of errands
3. Enjoying decorating Mikaela's birthday cake for her party
4. More sleep
5. More sleep
6. Work outside in my flower beds
7. More sleep
Do you see a theme here??
next week starts today: finish art for show next weekend and plant flowers. Other than that, enjoy spring. throw away my to-do lists and veg.
Hey. I was looking at fellow Ravenclaws and came across your blog. Depression is a hard thing to deal with. Then again, so are migraines. My thoughts are with you. :)
Hope you had fun with Little Jakey and Kim
and learnt a thing or 2 at the art lesson
I pray that God may give you peace. And takes your stresses away.
BIG MASSIVE HUGS
I pray that next week will be better for you.
you have some great goals one step at a time remember
love ya my dear friend
goals for next week.
1. read my bible.
2.take the bus by myself.
3.be more open with people I care about.
4. have a great senior dinner on thursday!
5. be mo organized!
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