It's Monday, and I'm back at work. I have a nice cold Caffine-free Diet Coke, my co-worker's hubby is bringing us lunch from Taco Bell, and all is happy and good in my life.
The funeral was Saturday and went fairly well. I fell in the snow going out the door (no pain, because the snow was very soft and fluffy in spite of it's coldness, and cushioned my fall.), forgot things at home 2 different times, but got there healthy and on time. My dad's current wife didn't show up. (YIPPEE!!!) so there was no drama. I complimented James on his "sexy hair" and then realized Aunt Martha was standing beside him. *blushing*
Uncle Bob got to meet James (and somehow managed to sneak off and give him the lecture about "when are you guys getting married), my cousin made beautiful flowers for the casket, and now it is all over and done with.
I'm feeling okay, except for random (frequent) bouts of depression. I feel lied to by men as a general whole, and am a little angry (not gonna rant about that today) with all male members of my family. I keep repeating to myself "everyone agrees that James is not like them" but right now it isn't working much. I feel deeply distrustful.
We all went out for Chinese yesterday (James & I and some of our friends), and it was SO MUCH FUN! Then we went to Walmart and I bought a new shirt... it says "You used to be my type... but then I got help!" LOL very cute. And pink, to match my shoes.
I also made a very cool project for the CAC blog. This week's goal? Everyone is supposed to learn some sign language and share it! Here is my ASL video for the day:
This is "M" signing "Command"
6 comments:
thinking of you today... i'm glad the funeral is behind you.... and his WIFE didn't even show up???
well i hope you have a good week with no more drama. ((((HUG)))
o and we had chinese yesterday too. :)
I am also shocked that his wife didn't show up?! That's pretty sad. But at least you don't seem to be bothered by it and that's good.
Well done on "command" sign, I love your expression!
If there is one thing I have learned, you cannot compare one man from another, although some seem to be genetically linked.
James does seem like a sweet young man. I think he may be a keeper.
I use the "eat sign" with Daniel
but i dont know how to put videos on my blog :(
Glad to hear your ok been thinking and praying for you heaps my special friend
I hope you work out your distrust of men. They arent all the same. James does seem nice
BIG HUGS
Love your idea to share ASL with everyone and I'm just blown away that you're continuing to keep up with everything despite everything you're going through. Glad you had a soft landing.
And I love your sign - it made me think of Star Trek command, which made me smile.
I feel so honored to have made your Blogger's Hall of Fame!
((HUGS))
After my first marriage (and 2nd if that counts since I married him twice) (very very ...VERY abusive) I had issues with men. I'd hate them all if my husband weren't the best. I got him because I did the work of understanding why I stayed with the first one: there's power in that understanding. Everything I read from you leads me to believe you have done the work. As a therapist once said: sooner or later you're going to have to trust your instincts. I did and I've never regretted it - I think I got into the first relationship because I wasn't listening. Your gut is the very best judge of men - I suspect anyone not worth you would set your antennae twitching - it does mine! Jana - trust that you know. I do.
I don't know how I got so far behind in your posts...well, yes I do...work got insane there for ahwile and I kept falling asleep all evening when I'd get home. But I'm here to catch up. Sending you HUGE hugs. The trust issue is such a major, MAJOR one for many of us. Sounds like James is a good guy. Hang in there.
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