5 o'clock and all is well!!!!!!
I have no idea where that quote comes from, but I know it's from a movie... I'm thinking the original Robin Hood cartoon for some reason?
Anyway, it's 5PM here and all IS well. I had time with my Mommy today, and now I'm hangin out at her house waiting for James to get out of his church... then we'll grab some grub before heading to M-the-unofficially-adopted-daughter's play tonight... it's her first performance, and it's a MUSICAL!!!!! She gets to SING and DANCE! I have my camera ready and 2 sets of extra batteries. I am BEYOND proud of her.
I had an appointment with my therapist on Wednesday, and was so excited to finally tell her GOOD things happening in my life! But the moment she pointed out that things were going well... I started to feel anxious. "Things can't go good for me... *rapid breathing*... things never go good for me... *rapid breathing*... BAD STUFF IS ON IT'S WAY!"
As I drove home, I analyzed this... why am I afraid of abundance in my life? (My pastor, wierdly enough, preached about abundance this morning.) Why do I assume that everything good in my life will disappear, and horrible stuff will replace it? I didn't figure out the answer to these questions...
Instead, I decided to just embrace the good, for whatever time it is here.
All IS well, and I'm enjoying it. :o)
4 comments:
all the best to M and her play
trust God Jana and yes do embrace the good
let tomorrow take care of its self
HUGE HUGS :) :)
Jen
Is it a rejection thing? Maybe you don't think you deserve good things. You do deserve them btw!
Accepting the good that's here now makes a lot of sense and it wise. The idea that the good will last forever is a little unrealistic but that doesn't mean we can't enjoy it. Anxiety is unresolved fears. It sounds like you're handling fear just fine to me. We can't live without it but we can manage it. :) Way to go Jana!
I think it's the town crier from some movie...Robin Hood is probably correct. :-)
Part of my issue is thinking I'm not worthy of God's blessings, that I have to deserve them, and when will the testing begin? How will it appear?! Eek! Eek! Bleh. I decided to enjoy the good, too. hee.
Sounds like you're just not used to having good things happen to you, and I think you deserve them. You've made really good choices, for yourself, and these are the consequences. :-)
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