Today was not a good day. I woke up at 2AM? 2:30 AM? I dunno. Somewhere in there. Didn't get back to sleep til sometime after 4AM. Woke up late, and was a couple of minutes late to work. Had a migrane...
Had an "incident" with my boss during my unpaid (and late.) lunch... it was bad this time. I mean, I have had bad issues with my boss before, but this was the absolute WORST yet. He really went off on me today, totally inappropriately... I was SOOOOOOOOOOOO angry at him, my hands were shaking for over an hour after the incident. I sat at my desk and cried as I worked for two hours, but there was so much work coming into my desk that I couldn't even leave to calm down. I came home, and promptly threw up... twice. I was THAT upset.
Through this though, I realized that if I really want to accomplish my dream of one day having an art business, I need to GET IN GEAR. I'd been doing more art this week anyway... even had Mod Podge on my hands two different evenings! (Mod Podge on the hands is a sacred feeling.) So... we are getting serious about art business and debt reduction.
February Goals:
-Play with art and see what I can make, and if anyone shows interest in buying.
-Calculate the debts I have, and make some fun "color me" charts to color my debt-elimination progress
-Continue learning about veggie cooking
-Enjoy married life
I have no idea what I'll do about the job. One day at a time... the longer I work there, the more $ I make. The more $ I make, the less debts I will have. The less debts I have, the less of a slave I am to my job... because debt gives my finances power over me, instead of me having power over my finances. And I'm going to pray about it. That will help more than anything.
6 comments:
sori you had a migrane and that your boss was mean
I like your Fab February goals
Jen
I'm really aorry about your day, I'll pray for you, and hope things get better.
What a jerky boss! Keep those goals close and take deep breaths.
HUGS
so Jana, aren't there any other jobs out there that can help you pay off your debt? I'm sorry, but the kind of negativity that can make your shake, cry and then go home and throw up - well, that kind of energy in your life is not going to get you where you want to go. Here's why: you are taking up so much energy dealing with the job, that it is spilling over into your life and art energy. It's going to suck some of it away. I know because when I finally left the battering marriage I was in, it was like someone gave me 24 extra hours each and every day - it had taken that much energy just to survive! You don't have to quit til you have something else, but were I you, I'd look around a bit.
Jana - I think Tammy's advice is right on. Is there any other job out there? Mike (my BF) is in a similar horrible position, and he is actively looking for another job. It's hard to see him dealing with the stress day in and day out. A job is NOT worth it!! I have learned that over the years. I've left several that were considered "good career" moves for me, but were horrible! It's worth pounding the pavement to find something that is less stressful for you!
I'm with Tammy and Tammyvitale, you need to find a new job! I'm in a similar position myself, although my current supervisor is a doll and I love her, but our workplace is EVIL!! I'm making a plan to go back to school and upgrade my skills so I can find a better job sooner. I wish you luck.
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