Rebuilding

Thanks for all of the hugs everyone.

I'm feeling much better. A lot of drama happened behind the scenes of the wedding, and a lot of feelings were hurt. My friends/bridesmaids hurt me and each other. My family hurt the bridal party & friends., (Especially one of them...), and possibly each other. I think I hurt my family. (I didn't mean for everything to be so chaotic!!! I meant for it to be fun & bonding & ORGANIZED! I don't even know how things got so out-of-control & complicated!) My family hurt James's family. James's family hurt me. I probably hurt some people, without even realizing it. I know I yelled several times. (And no, I'm not sorry for it either lol It takes a LOT to make me yell.)

So, now we are beginning to rebuild peace in our lives... One friendship has been rebuilt so far. We still have several relationships to fix, one shattered self-esteem to repair, lots of people to thank for wonderful things they did to help us, and lots of bridges to build or repair between us and those we love. Oh, and two people are candidates for the "person who needs yelled at loudly" award. More investigation is needed to find out which one should win.

Also, my wonderful cousins (like Cousin Amy) deserve hugs and public kudos, for giving me the MOST BEAUTIFUL RECEPTION EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!! You all SO outdid yourselves! Thanks SOOOO much!