Thrown for a Loop

As you could tell by my posts last week, my emotions have been a bit intense this past week. Sky high moments, followed by falls into the depths of depression. I've had small breakdowns and very big breakthroughs, as strange repressed emotions bubble up to the surface of my life.

At the moment, I'm stressing over the fact that my doctor (the one who realized that Prozac might help my migranes, and my life in general... and gave me a chance at a normal life...) is leaving... taking a position in another city. A very small thing, but it has TOTALLY thrown me for a loop. I HATE finding a new doctor... I always seem to end up with some insensitive clod who doesn't know or care what he's doing, or who thinks I'm insane or just really stupid.

I could always go to my dad's doctor. I keep debating that inside myself. I KNOW she is a good doctor, that she cares deeply about her patients, and that as a person who has treated one of my parents, she'd be the logical choice for my medical care. But she saw me at my lowests points, as my dad was dying and I had gone almost a week with no happy pills available... she reminds me of him... and the last time I saw her (unplanned though) did not go too well.

It's a really small issue, one that shouldn't be stressing me so badly... but it is. So tonight I"m going to go home, rest (I'm fighting a sinus infection), give my dad's girlfriend a call (to find out how far away Dad's doctor is from me), lay out my Happy Swap package for Tammy Mimms (way late) to put in the mail in the morning, and just breathe... take a long shower... use some of the shea butter that Maggie sent to me... (I used some Saturday and OMW that stuff is AMAZING!!!! I sense an addiction coming on...)

And know that this all will pass. Things will be normal again, soon. All this will be just a vague memory one day.