Ever since the proposal, my emotions have been off the charts... Joy beyond I could have imagined has been followed almost instantly by deep depression, feelings of isolation, and the desire to just be alone... swinging back and forth, for no apparent reason.
This new level to the relationship with James, budding friendships in my life, the departure (next week) of SuperRoomie, the new office politics at work, and a MILLION DECISIONS about life, housing, and the future have me so completely frazzled that I can't even think straight...
And I love it. My life is changing SO MUCH!!!! It's like my life has been frozen in a very long winter, and suddenly new life is being breathed into it.
Yes, the new relationships are stressful... learning how to trust, how much I can trust, and who I can trust is a very new adventure to me.
Half of me wants to whoop with joy (more... but I probably couldn't do it anyway, since I made my throat raw with so much shrieking yesterday!!!!!), half of me wants to burst into tears,... my inner child is hiding under the bed, and my inner adult is giving herself gray hairs...
But overall, I wouldn't trade this moment for the world!!!
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Here's the good news, you don't have to make all those million decisions all at the same time. Take your time to figure out things and PLEASE be one of those couples who invests alot of time into the marriage (pre marital counsellings and lots of it to work through stuff) and not so much money on the day. While it is a special day, the best investment is made in the longevity of your relationship. I know you'll make it just like I did cause we both know very well what NOT do to in a relationship for sure! I am happy for you!
amy took the words out of my mouth
you have time to figure things out
no need to rush
Ohhhhhhhhhhhh Im so happy for you both
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you are going through so many HUGE life changes ~ its good and overwhelming and oh so good ... sigh ... xoxox
I am so happy for you!
Even though this is a happy time, I know it's stressful. Just make sure to take care of yourself and relax when you can!
I remember feeling like that too. So much change....
But I am glad you are in it and aware. You are a smart cookie!
XO,
Melba
It'll all work out, trust me!I can't wait to get married!And, I can't wait to see you! yaaaaaaay!
Let go and let God! ENJOY the love surrounding you and wrap yourself in it. :)
sounds pretty normal to me.....
Congratulations! I am happy for you! Yay!
I know exactly what you are talking about. I have had those fears and worries, too. (I am a HUGE worrywart.) It's normal. Really, it is. A BIG thing about marriage is that you learn more about it only AFTER you've been in it. Trust yourself, trust your partner and have faith that your love will help you understand the ins and outs of marriage in its own time.
And it's true: You really don't need to know everything and learn everything right now.
Good luck!
I agree with everyone, just take things nice and slow and don't stress over the little things.
Enjoy this time.
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