I wish I could post something light and happy today... but that's not where I'm at tonight.
During the course of this week, I got a negative pregnancy test, listened to a horribly traumitized girl recounting her story of sexual abuse and the trauma of having her father not believe her, and learned that a family who worked SO. HARD. is struggling and may lose everything they have worked for.
My heart hurts today.
I know tomorrow is a new day. I know tomorrow the sun may shine, and everything may look better. I know that the potential pregnancy gave me a chance to think about the fact that in 5 months, life will look a lot different, and we can start getting really intense help getting pregnant. I know that the girl had the strength to tell about the abuse, before it continued and damaged her more. I know that the father is now believing his daughter. I know that the family is adjusting to having their children again, and they can adjust and turn things around again...
But today, I feel like a everything good and wholesome has been sucked from my soul...
During the course of this week, I got a negative pregnancy test, listened to a horribly traumitized girl recounting her story of sexual abuse and the trauma of having her father not believe her, and learned that a family who worked SO. HARD. is struggling and may lose everything they have worked for.
My heart hurts today.
I know tomorrow is a new day. I know tomorrow the sun may shine, and everything may look better. I know that the potential pregnancy gave me a chance to think about the fact that in 5 months, life will look a lot different, and we can start getting really intense help getting pregnant. I know that the girl had the strength to tell about the abuse, before it continued and damaged her more. I know that the father is now believing his daughter. I know that the family is adjusting to having their children again, and they can adjust and turn things around again...
But today, I feel like a everything good and wholesome has been sucked from my soul...
3 comments:
what a week!!
my prayers are with you my dear friend
I had began to wonder whether you were going to get intense help with getting preggy
a bloggy friend is just weeks away from her daughter and she and her partner had to have help
I pray it will happen for you
I dont know what else to say
I am lifting you up in prayer though
hugs xoxoxox
I'm so sorry Jana. It sounds like your heart is breaking right now and overflowing. Remember that dark times pass. Hugs.
I'm sorry you had such a bad week. I will keep you in my prayers. Stay strong and do what you can to help those people who need you. I hope next week is better. *hugs*
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