Change of Heart

I saw this online, and it made me think of a conversation with my counselor/therapist person. Right now I am in a place where I feel like the world around me is shaking - everything has changed, is changing, or is about to change.  In 6 months I will no longer be a student - I will be working, in a different office, possibly living and working in a new place. I will lose contact with my school friends, and meet a new group of people at my job.  I may need to learn a new city.  I will have a new boss.

When I look at all of the unknowns, I have to admit that I am scared.  I can't know or control the future, and that makes my insides shake like jello.

Maybe, instead of looking at the unknowns, I need to have faith that God is in control... and look at the possibilities in front of me. I may be able to live closer to Indianapolis, which means more opportunities to take language courses at a low cost, more art classes around, new ethnic restaurants to try...  I will have more time for my neice and nephew, and other family activities. I will have time for art, and can start painting everyday like my aunt suggested. I may be able to actually read books for fun. I will be able to start cooking and eating healthier foods, and preparing my body because we can start going to the doctor for more intense help getting pregnant.  

If I shift my view, from the black abyss of unknowns to the limitless possibilities in front of me - I might just be able to make it through this next few months!