Back to the real world...
I have millions of pics, but unfortunately didn't get any uploaded last night. We got in about 10:15PM last night, after finding out on the drive that my friend Kim's dad passed away... my heart is breaking for her... her relationship with her dad was even more complicated than the relationship I had with mine, and I just want to hold her and make the pain go away... but I know there is nothing I can do to make that pain go away. Only time can do that... (I know some of you might say that God can, but to me God just held me throughout the healing process... he didn't wave a magic wand and make the pain disappear.)
Regardless, I don't know if it's the fact that this is bringing back all of my grief-related issues, or if it's the lack of sleep, but I am WAY emotional today. After a solid week of having James by my side non-stop, and then having Alison with me too from Wed - Thurs, the idea of spending 48 hours alone (when James is at work or sleeping, and his car's plates are expired so I can't drive anywhere.) is flipping me out completely. Did I mention that I don't deal with change well?
All in all, I'm happy to be back in my own world again. Yes, my house may be falling apart around me, but my bed is nice and comfy, my fridge is filled with food, and my beloved is there.... so I'm happy.
4 comments:
It really does feel good to get home after a long trip doesn't it.
And the infamous of Dorothy, "O Auntie, there's no place like home."
I am sorry about your friend's dad. You are doing the only thing you can do and that is being there for her.
Praying for your friend here, I like the way you said that GOd holds us while the pains is here, grieving is a natural reaction.
praying for Kim and you
HUGS
Jen
Playing catch-up here reading through all the back posts - which are way more fun all at once (like watching all of the years MadMen at one go because I had never heard of that show before and got totally hooked). I wish you luck in finding all the leaks. Looks like you're making some great headway and learning a lot as you go (more than me....these things are good to know!). I am sorry for Kim's loss. Having had rough prental relationships myself I know that it takes a while to work through - but time does help. Meanwhile it makes sense that it made you sort of rocky. Hang in there!
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