I really hate birthdays. I know I rant about that every year, but they really do annoy me. I miss my dad like crazy... I miss hoping he would call... I just miss him. I plan to visit his grave sometime soon.
I have decided that every friend in my outside-the-computer-life asks for far too much help from me, and am considering going on a help-strike. No homework help, no computer help, no rides, no cleaning.... ESPECIALLY if the words "thank you" are not included in your vocabulary.
Now that I have ranted, and feel cleansed...
Not everything is bad!!!! Lots is good, in fact!
Remember when I posted here about my intimacy issues because of endometriosis?? We have learned to compensate, and that the pain kind of cycles... some days don't hurt at all! (Other days... well... we won't go there.) Intimacy rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!
I finally finished one of the two swaps I'm behind on... One was making 31 pages for an itty bitty book to swap, (that one I finished) and one is making 11 quilt blocks to swap. I LOVE LOVE LOVE how much swaps like that stretch my abilities!! I learn SO much from each swap I enter! I do not-so-much love how much pressure I feel as I swap... "Is it good enough? Will people like it? Mine seems different than everyone else's!" I need to learn that although Jana-art is very different than other people's... (less girl stuff. lots more words. less ribbons. No bows.)... it is okay. I need to look for swaps that seem to embrace that distinctiveness. I also need to READ THE FREAKING DIRECTIONS BEFORE I MAKE THE STUFF!! You know, I always got a G (G = good, S = Satisfactory, N = needs improvement) on my report card in kindergarten for "Follows directions well". Why the heck am I having such a problem as an adult?!?! Also, while I'm ranting, WHERE THE HECK IS MY SEAM RIPPER?! Okay, I feel better now that i've said that.
Okay, this post is getting really random... probably because it's six am and I'm awake... *shudder*. I have a nice warm bed waiting for me, and an awesome hubby to cuddle... so... goodnight everyone! If you've managed to read this far, and survived my completely bizarre ramblings... you deserve a cookie. Oatmeal cookie, anyone? *handing them out, one plate of with raisins and one plate without*
4 comments:
Happy birthday (I think)! :-) I'm sorry you're missing your dad.
xo
good on you stand up for yourself girl
you have enough to do looking after you and James
thanks for the cookie
Happy Birthday
HUGS
Jen
Only you can make art that is authentically "Jana", no one else, so keep arting the way you want. You'll feel less satisfied if you try to be exactly like someone else, but the results aren't completely the same, 'cause you are you, not the other person. :-) And you are a delight.
Happy to hear the intimacy issues are improving and you're having a lot of fun. lol
Ranting blog entries are fun! I'm glad you are standing up to your "friends". I'm also glad that the intimacy issues are being worked through. And thanks for the cookie. I love oatmeal cookies. Can I have one of each??
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