Can you believe, yesterday was James & I's one month anniversary! We have been married only a month! It seems like we've always been together. :)
He pointed out yesterday that it was our one month anniversary... but I wasn't feeling too cheerful. Later, I realized that it was also the one-year anniversary of The Call. One week from today marks the anniversary of my father's death.
I've pretty much went into emotional shutdown in the past week or so... the pressures of work, learning to work together in marriage, money, leaky roofs,... combined with knowing that it's Febuary, and eventually I will have to deal with my father's death... It's been hard. In so many ways, I just want to lay down and hide from it all... I don't want to get up, or go to work, or go anywhere else... I just want to hide from it all. But grief is not something that you can hide from.
So for the next two weeks, I'm making a commitment on this blog to be open with what i'm feeling. My blog may not be the warm-fuzziest place for these two weeks, it may not always be cheerful and happy,... but I know I'm not alone in grieving, and maybe someone reading this will need to know that they aren't alone either.
4 comments:
You don't always need to keep things warm and fuzzy, just for us. :-) *hugs*
If you can't be real in your own little section of cyberspace...where can you be real?
Congrats on your one month anniversary.
Prayers for you as you struggle though the next few weeks. If there's anything I can do to help, please let me know.
HUGS
Jen
Oh Jana, congratulations on your 1 month wedding anniversary and at the same time, take things gently. Grief is something that can't be altered or rushed. Give pain its place and in time it will be replaced with something else. It's nice to see you here again after my absence, even if it's a hard time. I think it's a hard time for a lot of us.
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