The Creative Challenge day this week at the CAC blog was done by Leah (who rocks btw). She challenged us to set a vision for our lives down the road. Eventually I'm gonna make mine into a slideshow, but for the moment... let me just ramble to you a little about my vision for the future!
So, my current vision for the future? I want the life here... the hubby, the babies, and my family nearby. I want my kids to know their very cool cousins, hike in the woods where I hiked, learn to hunt mushrooms and ginseng and all the things i did growing up. I want to continue being an "unlicensed foster parent" (yeah, that's what I'm feeling about myself at the moment) by being a positive figure that teens can cling to when their own families aren't there. I picture M and I eventually having kids at the same time... me passing down my babies hand-me-downs to her for her kids. I picture me continuing to work with "my kids" but intensifying my efforts... I don't just want to teach them, I want to really know them and be a meaningful person in their lives. I want them to say "she made a difference in my life" one day.
I can't say that I never want to travel, or do all of the exciting things I dreamed of as a child. I'm a little afraid of giving up those dreams... and will probably take at least one MAJOR trip before I'll get married. I want to KNOW that the life of a travelling do-gooder isn't where I'm supposed to be. I think I know now... but I don't want to always wonder "what if", ya know?
6 comments:
what ever will be will be
I pray that whatever happens God is at your side Jana
just because you're married and have kids doesn't mean you can't travel....our best times were in a beat up bread truck that usually was our PA work truck but also doubled as a (very leaky) camper. There are bear stories and battery boiling over stories and crossing mountains with fog so thick you couldn't see 5 feet, and campfires and dark mountains with only stars, and waterfalls and dead batteries, and rain rain rain and sliding douwn mountain sides - and it was all done with kids. And then we came home to where husband grew up and the kids in the school he attended (for a while anyways). You can have new and old side by side. It works.
Keep envisioning! There's great power in visualization. :)
I agree with Tammy that some of the funnest times so far with my kids have been on trips we took as a family. Funny stories, neat things, times of exploration...it all becomes even better when you share it with your kids. You will get there one day, I am sure. You'll make a great mom.:)
I just read all your poems from your poetry site. They're AWESOME, Jana. Seriously, so many of them truly connected with my heart. Thank you for sharing your writing.
I hate the "what if" scenario that I sometimes tend to do. It can be quite traumatic to do that, especially thinking about my past.
I think you have a wonderful vision and hope that it will come to pass and have no regrets!
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