The collage journey with Shelley is on the beginning of week 3, and I have to say I am loving this!!!! I skipped a few days after the layoff bombshell, for a variety of reasons including the obvious... but yesterday I was back on track.
Today's collage shows my inner need for direction... my life feels SO deeply out of control right now. I obsessively rearranged the movie bin at Walmart today. *sigh* People thought I was crazy, but in some small way I gave myself control over something. Which is good... since the best-laid plans, as usual, fell through. Today I planned to refresh my skills with the Microsoft programs in preparation for testing at the temp agencies this week... got seated at my computer, in my jammies, with my beverage and some crocheting... only to find out the that library's computer tutorials require a username and password. Crap.
I'm looking in several different directions for a new job. This week will be filled with job fairs, temp agencies, and probably a great deal of ranting and raving as I work on making a resume that doesn't suck. I HATE RESUMES!!!!!!!!!! They make me want to throw things... all the conflicting opinions about what a resume should be, and how to make them perfectly perfect, and blah blah blah.
My self-esteem has shatted this week. Trying on all my professional clothes has showed me just how far I've let myself go. Weight gain, hairy eyebrows, deathly palor, etc... tomorrow will also contain an eyebrow waxing session and some time in a tanning bed. I can't walk into an interview feeling this crappy about myself.
My collage also shows that my inner self realizes that I AM unique, I AM "spicey", and that THIS IS ALL OKAY. After a week of hearing how not-okay I am in order for friends to prepare me for the job market, I'm glad that the inner me has not listened to the messages.
I AM unique...
I DO "spice it up"...
Somewhere there is a Jana-shaped job waiting on me, the real me, to fill it... right? *nervous fidgeting*
5 comments:
Great collage and realizations Jana! Perhaps all of this is happening so you once again refocus on yourself, who you want to be, how you want to make an impression and what you want to do? You're putting yourself first and embracing your unique inner wonderfulness, isn't that amazing?! I think so.
I don't envy you on the job hunting it is a big pain in the you know where.
If it is at all possible, take your time looking for the right job. I know I have always rushed into the first job that was willing to hire me because I was desperate to replace the cash flow we had lost.
But if you can. I promise you the right one will come out of no where.
If you like, I can e-mail you a copy of resume and you can disect it to meet your needs. Just a though.
Good luck! And I will be praying for you.
Hang in there Jana! There is the perfect job out there for you and you'll find it! Or it will find you. I had the same thought as Leticia about a resume... if you'd like to see mine as an example, I'd be happy to share. I like the way mine looks, and I've had some success in getting jobs! Let me know if I can help! :)
aah I hear ya girl! Praying here that you get your resume sussed :-)
oh - we can commiserate as I too am job hunting (I even had an interview this week...and know I don't want the job. I'd die of boredom. Even were it offered - but that's a long story). Anyhoo...seriously, the first thing you need to do each morning is look in the mirror and say "I love you, Gorgeous!" And you know what? I think the Universe loves you enough to kick you out of that job that was too easy to go to where you were treated badly and they made you cry. This is a gift. A big and true gift. And some day you are going to look back on it and say: thank Goodness! NOW I see why I got laid off! It makes total sense. send me a draft - I'll help you with the resume. It helps me think about mine - I just did one and a cover letter for another friend. I like doing it.
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