Today is not going well.
Remember yesterday how I said I was feeling like an emo teenager? Today is worse... I feel like every nerve is on edge. I just want to lock myself in a room alone for a long long while.... I just want to be alone. I feel hopeless... like I can't handle life anymore.
But unlike before, when I ran in terror from those feelings... today I'm going to embrace them. I'm going to let myself completely feel... Just by giving these emotions permission to exist, I feel a giant weight lifting.
I'll keep this post updated throughout my workday, as a way to 1. keep my sanity 2. track my emotional life
4 comments:
you go girl! when you face the "demons" you'll find they're just throwing shadows and aren't much bigger than namedless on your side bar. =]
I finally got my final blog on the presentations the other night up - that'll give you something to browse thru if you have time.
jana your in my thoughts and prayers
take care my sweet
HUGS
Jen
It's incredibly wise and brave of you to allow these emotions Jana. Know that they don't last forever (even though they feel like they will). We medicate ourselves most of the time to keep them down but really, aren't we an emotional ocean? We have tides. Yours is just very low right now. The happy will come back.
Kudos to you for standing up to those negative emotions! It will make you stronger and help you figure out the best way to deal with them. Sometimes I feel that it's best to "step outside of myself" and get myself MOVING. Just doing things, talking, singing, playing. These activities really help when negative emotions tend to knock us down. I hope you keep things good for you. **hug**
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