Visited my Grandma yesterday and she's really doing good after a stroke last week. She was able to talk to us some, but I think they had her on some medicines that made her a little loopy. There were times when she made perfect sense (asked me if I could see okay as I crocheted, was happy that I hadn't had any migranes last week, etc.) but also times when she seemed too tired/frustrated to try to talk. And one of her nurses is SERIOUSLY annoying. I think she is taking too much Prozac... she is just WAY to nice and talked to us all (me, Mom, Grandma) like we were very small (and very stupid) children.
Got an e-mail back from my cousin, unimpressive really. The family drama has now shifted, with my family now yelling at my mom. (People who yell at my Mommy need to be punished!!!!!) BUT the good part of this is that my mom and I had an AWESOME AWESOME talk last night. I mean, probably the BEST talk we've had since I was a kid. Deeply therapeutic... it's nice to be able to talk to someone who has been there since your first day of breath, and ask them about the events that helped mold you into the person that you are. Especially when you know that person is honest enough to not excuse bad behavior... but to help you understand what in your personality makes you prone to it. Much easier to stop yourself from doing bad things, if you can figure out WHY you find yourself doing them over and over again.
And my dad heard my very angry voice mail on my phone and said whoever said I was a loser needed to be "thumped" and that if I give him a name he'll be happy to do the honors!!! *giggling* When I called him back, we talked for an HOUR AND A HALF!!!! An hour and a half! I never talk to my dad that long! And he didn't talk about suicide even once!!!!
I did find out why he didn't use the money I gave him for his divorce... I sent it through my dear uncle, and that uncle happened to fall upon some bad financial times... spent dad's divorce money, and then never paid him back!
Anyway.... I went to Walmart after church, grabbed a new pillow and some art supplies, and then came home. Slept from 1PM until 4:30, which is why I'm typing this at 1AM. lol I stayed home from church (still VERY nauseated), chatted with the roomate, cuddled with the kitty, and did my art project for the day... wanna see???
I have a book here that teaches you how to draw stuff. I'd tried to use it once before and it DID help me, but that was right before I moved here, and with all the craziness, I never got back to it. Well, today I decided to give it another try, and went to the chapter about drawing the human body. So in the picture you'll see a guy in some baggy ghetto pants (they didn't look as baggy as I wanted), the guy who sold me my car (yeah, scary!!!) and a model from my latest Newport News catalog... only short and round instead of tall and anorexic. LOL Gotta work on my proportions a little yet. This is the first time I tried to draw a real person, the first time I drew specific outfits, and the first time I ever used color! Now I just need to learn how to draw faces... Maybe later this week I'll try that!
6 comments:
great work, jana!! i love your outfits and all the details! and i especially love how you made your model short and round instead of tall and anorexic. ;-)
So glad you were able to visit Grandma! Wish I could... but not when I'm 6 hours away and due in 9 days. I sent her a card instead and mom has kept me updated every few days on her progress. I am glad you were able to talk with your mom and dad and have some meaningful conversations. That is such a blessing! Like the artwork. Did you use colored pencil to fill it in?
I like the pictures, good job! And I am so happy that you had such wonderful conversations with both of your parents, that is awesome!!
I talk like that all the time with my mom and once in a long while my dad. It took a long time forgive him for abandoning us.
Hey, Jana!! That is so awesome that you had those conversations with your parents. I kind of have a strange relationship with my parents and it's always coolest feeling when we do see eye to eye, which isn't very often. We do have a good relationship, though.
Also, concerning the whole mood swing thing . . . sometimes I think I'm going crazy too and I don't know to trust myself when I have a strong reaction to something. So, I end up not saying anything - thinking about it - and then responding a little bit later. What drives me crazy is that I know they are my true feelings. I would feel that way even if the emotions weren't throwing my reaction out of whack. Oh, well, the mysteries of women's emotions.
Kat, it wasn't really intentional, but thanks anyway LOL
Amy, yep, colored pencils are awesome!!!
Leti, yeah father issues are hard to face. I have to repeatedly forgive mine.
Jenean, that's for sure... women's emotions are nutty!!! I think the mood swings just bring the feelings to our attention when we'd otherwise ignore/repress them.
i'm so glad you had such good talks with both of your parents! that is a healing thing...
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