Well, here I am again. Since you all were like "What?!" the last time I mentioned that I'd been feeling overwhelmed for a few months, I've committed to be a little more honest about my inner workings.
I feel overwhelmed today. My house is a horrible mess. My tax homework is still behind, and getting worse. My grandma is still in the hospital. I'm still sick. I am exhausted all day, until the minute I lay down in bed and then suddenly I'm WIDE awake (coughing, blowing my nose,...). I worked overtime Wednesday (12 hour shift), had kids stuff last night, have kids stuff tonight, tax class tomorrow morning, church Sunday, and then next week is the holidays.
I'm thinking about quitting the tax classes, but I only have 3 more weeks of them. But I'm so tired... I don't know if I can keep this up. I just want to NAP!!!!! I haven't exercised in over a week, my laundry is piled up, I haven't had time to do anything creative, and I just feel like I'm spinning in circles. I don't want to spend every minute of my holiday trying to cram in tax exercises. But I would really like to be able to hold my head up high and say "I FINISHED THE CLASS!!!!" But another part of me wonders what the point is? A few cents more per hour at a part-time job? Is it really worth this stress?
So now you have my dilema.
In other news... my cell phone is now dismembered. Seems my brand has a habit of falling apart (literally), so at least I'm not alone... but my phone is now sitting in two totally seperate pieces. Sometime this week I have to find the time to get it replaced.
Grandma is still in the hospital, they think it'll take her a few weeks for her body to re-absorb the blood that was leaking. She's quite uncomfortable I'm sure. Please keep her in your prayers.
In HAPPIER news (I hate it when my blogs are really negative) the kids night last night went GREAT... we watched Madame Blueberry (which is about being thankful and not whiney...) and then broke up into small groups to discuss thankfulness. The kids did a skit about the Bible story of 10 lepers (think: disease that rots off your flesh) being healed by Jesus, and only one saying thanks, and TOTALLY hammed it up!!!! I told the 9 unthankful ones to just run away all happy and jumping... they WAY overdid it and it was hilarious!!!!
One of the girls was attached to me the whole night. She's like 9 and absolutely adorable... I couldn't hardly move an inch (literally) without her following me. She helped me with everything I did, stayed late to help us clean, played the keyboard with me, and sang the most PRECIOUS song. I plan to videotape her singing it next time. It was absolutely beautiful.
"My kids" are beyond precious.
OH, and the happiest news of all? I have a TON more MSN emoticons, and now I have MOODS for my display pics too!!! *giggling*
2 comments:
Good heavens girl! You need to slow down! You are killing your poor little body.
I used to do that and I learned to slow down but cutting where I could.
I am saying this with a lot of love, but your body cannot go on like that forever, so try to find a way to adjust your schedule.
Jana!! why did you work 12 hours on Wednesday when u r sick tut tut
still praying for your Grandma
take it easy and get better and then attack your house 1 room at a time
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