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I can honestly tell you all that this was one of the best weekends of my life. I have a MILLION things to share... how I remembered my dad Friday night and couldn't sleep... how we all had a ton of fun Saturday... how James's car broke down, again... how peaceful the cemetery was when I visited my dad Sunday... how much I love my new "toy"...
But really, more than those things (which I hope to eventually share), I want to tell you about my bliss.
This weekend, things went out of my control completely. We took the kids (Jakey & Phoenix) to an event at a park in town... the sun was beating down on us, and I got SO SICK. I had to call James, and tell him I would miss his family cookout... again. (The third family event in a row that I had missed.) I felt like SUCH A LOSER... but he said he would come over later, and bring Ghost Rider with him for us all to watch.
So he came... as soon as we sat down, we relaxed into each other... I couldn't believe how much I missed him, and how easily we fit back together. We watched Ghost Rider (OMW! SO GOOD!!!!!! I love it.), and then James, Kim & I stayed up talking until about 2 in the morning... they kept on talking, but at 2 I fell asleep on the fold-out couch beside James. (No, we weren't doing anything dirty.. it's just more comfy as a bed than a couch. lol) I woke up at about 4, when James went to leave.... and his van wouldn't start.
He thought it was just flooded, so I sat out in the van with him... Kim went back inside to sleep... and we talked. REALLY talked. About how I had curled up so deep inside myself... how I felt my friends didn't understand about my grief... how I'd shut everyone out. He held me... he asked me my ring size... (*grin* I think he's thinking of a promise ring for the moment.)...we talked about M and the things she's doing... he had no wise advise either... which made me feel better. It's much better to be clueless together, than apart, ya know? lol
So, I'm trying to stop curling up inside of myself... to really live IN my life, and enjoy it... to connect with others without fear... to create... and to relax, and enjoy the amazing things I've been blessed with.
6 comments:
oh honey that is so great :) its really the best thing we can do isn't it? xox
"this was one of the best weekends of my life." Im so PLEASED for you :) :) :)
I was thinking how lovely James is
how blessed you are to have him and then my eyes nearly popped ot of my head LOL
I read and respond and tyoe a bit more I cant wait to read on Im so excited for you!!!!!!!!
so this could be the real start of wonderful things to come for you
hugs my friend :)
Hey Jana! What a great weekend!!!
Wow! Those are the best times with a boyfriend! Ahhh...memories, you will cherish them. hee.
We also rented Ghost Rider and the first time I shut it off and thought it was satanic, but then I talked to a friend and he told me to give it a chance. I actually liked it.
Thank goodness he asked the ring size, so I guess I can uncross everything now? LOL I love that you're so full of joy! XXOO
You need to get married! so, i came come to the wedding!
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