Friday, November 28, 2008

Neglect & Commitment

In looking at my house today, I came to a deep realization...


The office, the one room in our house devoted to my hobbies and used almost exclusively by me, is the worst kept room in our house. It isn't just a little messy, or a little trashed... It is completely and utterly out of control.

I still have the contents of our bathroom cabinet in my house from renovation time in August. I believed we were going to finish the renovations soon, which involved lifting the sink up again, and just never bothered to put the stuff back below the sink again.

I also never put the equipment away. Notice on the floor a shovel and the red power tool (jigsaw, I think), and the blue bag filled with manuals about plumbing and other home improvements.. Also notice the binder on the floor, which was meant to be my collage journal book... randomly tossed away.

I have no excuse at all for the other two areas. My computer area is a complete disaster. In my defense, the videos laying all around WERE in a nice tidy pile, but I knocked it over. *sigh*

And the table area... wow. I have no words for this.


This housekeeping tells a lot about me. The rooms used for everyone's benefits are far cleaner. The clutter in them is much less and much newer. They have been vacuumed more recently. They are cared for, a reflection of how I care about others, about "us" as a whole. The room I use is neglected, it's contents scattered carelessly, and the lowest on my priority list... a reflection of how I treat myself.


This holiday weekend I am making a commitment, to ME.


I commit to take only one friend to one destination (Kim to church) and no other errands on behalf of others.


I commit to working first and foremost to clean in my office, purely for my own benefit and sanity.


I commit to restablishing a solid pratice of daily collage. I commit to getting all of my supplies together and a bit more organized (but not anally organized.)


I commit to taking time to chat with God, my strongest supporter.

I commit to doing this all at my own pace, while still enjoying myself with fun things along the way.

2 comments:

Our Home Schooler and Jen said...

good on you my friend

and just to hold you accountable I want a photo of the clean office :)
no pressure lol

Im sure youll feel good after youve done this

HUGS
Jen

Anonymous said...

a clean office is the sign of an idle mind. You remember I had my studio clean and it actually stayed that way - because I wasn't creating. i am now. And it's a wreak. And so is my office. And my bead table well, the piles have piles. And it doesn't matter. But it does matter that you make the time to take care of yourself. Because, you see, I love your baby clothes. And the ones you sent that I ordered are wonderful, and now that I'm going to be a grandma again (surprise!), I'm going to need more. So just make sure you can find your needles and your yarn. =]