On a serious note, the first serious note I've struck in quite some time, I have noticed one bad thing about my month of Prozac use. I have done NO inner healing. Now, granted, it's been a hectic month. Migranes, tax classes, tax homework, reading tax chapters, and so on... But really, I've ended up missing quite a bit of church due to migranes, several Thursday kids nights due to migranes, and even two days of work. So, I have had plenty of time to get in touch with my "inner Jana" and see what's doing on with her. But what it all comes down to, basically, is that I didn't spend that time as wisely as I could have. I HAVE done domestic tasks... the day I went on my wild cleaning spree, this week's task of conquering all the laundry and re-arranging all my yarn & craft supplies, etc. I HAVE exercised faithfully since starting on the meds, and got my first weight-loss-related compliment yesterday.
But I haven't dealt with the inner Jana... the issues, the hurts, etc... and I haven't spent the deep time with God that I need to, so that he can help me to heal. In short, I just have used my "happy pill time" to avoid emotional issues instead of dealing with them.
Bad Jana!!!! I need to work on this.
Categories: Taxes,, Healing,, Migranes,, Spiritual,, Cleaning,, Exercise,, Weight,, Prozac
7 comments:
Boy do I hear ya!! I have been feeling the same way for a while. So, after I did my excercising I went to my room and for over an hour did my bible study on intercessory prayer and just had fun with my Lord.
So, you are not the only one feeling that pull.
you're not "bad", jana. sheesh, no. hang in there. sounds to me like you're doing your best.
loved the story about just knowing you were meant to walk, resisting, and then not being able to find your car key. it may have felt sucky, but it's clear to me you were being cared for.
Leti, cool! Glad I'm not alone!
Eliza, being cared for... wow! What a cool way to look at it!!! As I pondered upon it today, I thought about what I'd do if my kid were gonna drive with a suspended license... of COURSE I'd take their keys away if they wouldn't agree not to drive!
Take little steps when working on the inner you Jana you'll get there
praying for u
hi jana... thanks for visiting and leaving me a comment! i love the new look to your blog.
wanted to tell you that i feel like i'm in a similar place as what you've just described... avoiding the emotional issues. i too am needing/thinking about plunging in to try to heal. and i know I need God's help also, I have so much resistance to work through first though. best wishes to you as you do this hard work also. glad to hear of some ups for you!
Jana, don't beat yourself up over the things you haven't done this past month, just look at all you have accomplished. It is an adjustment period and if you were to work on all that stuff all at once, you would have a meltdown for sure! God knows what He's doing with ya!
Jana,
There are a couple of people at my church that are trained Grief Recovery counselors through this program - www.grief-recovery.com - it might help you. Maybe you can find someone close to you that will be holding a class?
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